i've just realised that i am a cynic.

i've also realised that sometimes the pple u venerate most in this world may not hold u in as high a regard as u think, or hope, or assume they do. i think that thought takes some getting used to... it involves rearranging certain memories u hold dear, it means rethinking certain relationships with pple. though it in no way diminishes the quality of those memories or relationships...

i also think that my life revolves too much ard one person... i think i was a happier, healthier person when i had more of a life, with more friends. too much now is wrapped up in one person such that every happy or sad moment is just a seesaw pivoted ard one... i think i need to start actively involving myself with my other friends... once their exams are over of course! =) *haha*

this past sem was a drag. an entire mth of non-stop assignments, essays and tests. totally drained me. thankfully its all over. maybe now i've some time to recharge, refuel...

it was cool meeting wanying and leo again today. *hahaha* so finally i get to see them together, not as two classmates, but as a couple *hahah* they're so cute =)... the bar was interesting... music a little toooo loud for my tastes but the band was good... dinner was fun too. i miss my class... uni's not fun in that there's no fix class to move ard with. every 3 mths once the sem is over, u just move on. another 3 mths, another batch of tutorial mates, another 3 mths and another batch..... little stops and starts. by the time u start getting to know pple well enough to consider them 'friends', it's time to move on...

and i still can't sleep... been trying to sleep for the past 2 hrs. unhappiness induced insomnia... hahah... damn and no one on my icq to talk to...*sighzzz*