"you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey..."

msn's got an article on pet cloning... i wish i still had some fur of his or something left. i found one strand of his fur that day... saw it wedged in the crease of a magazine. my first thought was - that looks familiar. the white to brown transition was undeniable... a stab of joy rushed through me... clutching it tightly between my fingers i rushed to the room to try and find a safe spot for it (my very last tangible, physical evidence of him), but there was a lot of wind and when i looked again, there was nothing grasped between my fingers....

... they were replaying an old sitcom on tv mobile today. i was quite delighted when i recognised it. it was one i did enjoy. then they started singing "you are my sunshine" and suddenly my memories were of a v different kind...

"...you never know, dear, how much i love you. so please don't take my sunshine away"...

but he's gone now and for a while the skies went dark and life was colourless, drab and cheerless...anguish was the order of the day and i thought it was over.. but apparently not. there was a period when i cried till i couldn't cry anymore and when the pain i felt couldn't get worse... then it all went away and life went on...but now i'm not as desensitised as i was before and little things can trigger the pain and tears...

i guess i'll never see "you are my sunshine" in the same light again... neither "danny boy" too for that matter (nothing to do with the name, but for the fact that he seemed to calm down more with "danny boy")