pple take me too much for granted... the one who can always be relied on, the one who will always do the thing... wateverrr.. it's just all crap. i always become the one who does everything then and therefore the one who can be overlooked, the one who doesn't matter cos she's the one who doesn't need to be considered or looked at... in effect i become invisible. pple disregard the fact that i also breathe, eat and feel... but becos i'm 'invisible', i don't matter. my efforts at anything are negligible, never considered when everythings ok. and when things arent, or when effort is 'lacking', it's criminal! HA life is indeed funny dont u think?

so all my efforts are things are frm the start wasted since pple dont give a damn abt them. i can do and slog for eternity and pple will con't right on taking me for granted. then when i decide to 'rebel' and not do things for once, i'm beaten up abt it! real hilarious isn't it? i dont do something then pple suddenly notice!! i dont do something and pple complain, pple make noise, pple start scolding, nagging... it doesn't end friend, it never does.

so as far as i see it the equation goes as such:
i do something = pple dont notice, dont bother (ie. i am taken for granted)
i dont do something = pple notice and pple start yelling
which means everything i've ever done is forgotten (convieniently) and ignored and i get beat up for the now. hahhaha this is reallllly funny... it cracks me up man...