“let the rain come down and wash away my tears”…

initally, I was thinking of writing something about the Ronaldo situation,
but perhaps I’ll leave that for another day.

I’m thinking of weightier thoughts now…
out there in the velvet night the rain is falling, out there, Brasil rejoices, Germany weeps…
out there, a broken heart cries in the night’s lonliness;
out there, sorrow for a family who has just lost a son,
another waits in sleepless fear for one to wake,
and yet a third must surely be on their knees in thankfulness for one’s survival…

Life… death… love… despair… hurt… sorrow… anxiety… joy… thankfulness…

All contained in just one night… all rolled into one tight ball of darkness and silence.
The stars are the only constant ones on a night like this…
on a night like all others and yet unique, unforgetable, dreaded…by others.

I’m reminded of how unpredictable and fickle life can be.
Life and Fate hold us in tremulous hands…
but it is how and what we make of life that makes the difference...

life taken away is mourned and lamented, but we must remember the Life that was given
life turned meaningless is only temporary..despair and pain never forgotten will pass eventually..
life devoid of joy and peace can be rebuilt...

and like the rain that weeps for pain and loss, we too can cry,
till we allow it to wash away our tears...

ok folks... there is it! =) wat do u think? damn.. i had better get my tagboard up quick... =) the archives link isn't working yet cos i have absolutely no idea how to do it!! but i'll figure it out sometime... but of course this is just my first stab at creating my own webpages with html so bear with me yeah? =)

(rem this?)

if there were no words,
no way to speak, i will still hear you

if there were no tears,
no way to feel inside, i'd still feel for you

. . . . . .

here we are with another bridge to cross
face to face, heart to heart
and i've loved you from the start

. . . . . .

tm morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
i will be here

if in the dark we lose sight of love
hold my hand and have to fear
'cos i will be here

tm morning if you wake up
and the future isnt clear
i will be here

sure as the seasons are made for change
our lifetimes are made for years
i will be here...

[music] : spirit - stallion of the cimarron

without a light
i fear i will stumble in the dark
lay right down
decide not to go on...

then from on high
somewhere in the distance
there's a voice that calls
remember who you are

if you lose urself
your courage will soon will follow
so be strong tonight,
remember who you are

patience if ive not been ard... working on smthg at the moment. who knows? u might get a preview soon =)

the pathos is simply heartbreaking...elegaic

i sit by the fire and think
of people long ago
and people who will see a world
that i shall never know

but all the time i sit and think,
of times that were before,
i listen for returning feet
and voices at the door.

- The Fellowship of the Ring

WAS THERE A TIME

Was there a time when dancers with their fiddles
In children's circuses could stay their troubles?
There was a time they could cry over books,
But time has set its maggot on their track.
Under the arc of the sky they are unsafe.
What's never known is safest in this life.
Under the skysigns they who have no arms
Have cleanest hands, and, as the heartless ghost
Alone's unhurt, so the blind man sees best.

Dylan Thomas

my fav lines are the last four.. which are urs?

the little thing actually came out of his cage today and took a walk round the balcony! ate up (voraciously) all the seeds and pellets (dry food) he could find on the floor, buuttttt... thats ok as long as he's decided he's not so much in pain anymore not to move ard =) saw him actually lying down this morning and i was sooo relieved (i.e. there was no more pain) pooorrrrr thingy so tired and soooo hungry... all the pain preventing him from eating and sleeping comfortably. but he's a strong piggie a.ka. tough nut =) hopefully things continue to improve i miss his little snufflings and squeaking and gurgling... i miss seeing him run out and hide behind the flower pots... i miss seeing him happy, hale and well... i'm tired of having to nurse him

but relief is the word of the day and im not going to start complaining... i'm such a slave to him *hahahah* but love is unconditional yar? aiyah now i wished i had a scanner... how can one resist such a cute thing =)

maybe its time to write something 'intelligent'? haha.. have to get rid of the stagnation. then again, moods not soo good (we're taking him to the vet tm.. *sighhhhhhh* =( and i think working really 'dumbs down' the mind. well i suppose it depends on what kind of work it is.. sales isn't v stimulating mind-wise. i'd rather be studying..serious! =)

also i would really like to go out with my friends more. its so weird. this hols has been real quiet. none of that crazy go-out-every-day routine (tiring, but fun =) hahah ooh just listening to this radio 'live acoustic' version of Matchbox20's Push...the dj's voice is sooo cool hahah... ive this thing with sexy voices =)

stasis.. that's the word of the moment. nothins been done to this blog, in terms of aesthetic value in quite a while. and i'm currently, officially, depressed as of 7pm today. got back aft the shopping n swimming whirl of a day, saw the pile of untouched dry food...then spotted the bottle of antibiotics in the fridge alongside his apple juice and syringe and knew it cldnt be good. have just spent an hr or so petting him till he fell asleep. hopefully he'll sleep better than me tonite.

gave him some tissue paper to play and nug ard, which he did, so at least hes not taaaat bad. but hes not exactly eating a lot... *sigh sigh sigh and sigh* you'll never imagine how much trouble, heartache, stress, restless nights (punctuated every 2hourly with fear-induced starts resulting in sleep-blurred scrambling to his cage: is he...?, gripped with the worst fear u can feel) such tiny thing can cause.

my only comfort at this moment is the knowledge that he knows when we're there, and responds when we pet him with his coos and gurgles... we can only hope that tm will be a better day. poor poor baby...

http://encarta.msn.com/column/urbanlegendsmain.asp

take a look at this =) the article is already interesting in itself but what i like even more is the columnist =) she's good. looking through her back columns would be worth you while if u're the kind who's interested in gd, humourous, informative writing... enjoy!

my wish list (bks) :

Jostein Gaardner - The Christman Mystery
Neil Gaiman(ed) - The Sandman: Book of Dreams

owning bks are soo much more fun dont u think? *grinz*

sitting in the rabbit's home, doing...nothing.. well we are going to play scrabble soon...once he gets back with milk (choc) and biscuits =) yay!! he's back... it's raining outside. i like it when it rains...pour all you want ha! i'm nice and snug and dry inside =)) ok milk and biscuits beckons... later...

being on the other side of the counter really does wonders to perception. ever thought salespple were pesky? well, now i'm one of them! ha and its such a joke... cos i never wanted to do sales. ive got blisters galore and tremendously achy feet (not to mention my back too) to testify... ah well but in the end after 2 days (and finally, finally, actually 'opening' 2 sales all by myself today, totalling a value of a whoopingly cool $80 dollars) i actually think it's not too bad!! =) but positive feelings aside, i'm definitely not going to make this a permanant or future thing, definitely not! but for the experience and the moolah =) aaaannd.. since it IS the hols... i guess its OK *grin* plus, when u've got gd, nice fellow (senior) staff working with u, i see no reason to complain ...

http://www.moby-online.com/cms/viewalldiary.asp
hehe cool.. found this link. it's moby's on tour dairy thingy =)

arrghss there's nobody online for me to talk to!!!!!! bleah... sighs that just detracts a reason for staying online outrageously long teehee... but, i'm waiting for someone to pop up so i guess i'll be ard for a little longer =)

what my site? its ur site too u know! =P bleah.. aiyah nothing lah.. just didn't really want to write lots of stuff.. so put links lah.. anyway was initially thinking of doing a small writeup/commentary sort of thing on the current bk i'm reading but i don know how to do it in html so do it in the main post =) hehe...

arghsss now i'm chao da... todays sun super hot. hehe.. enough of swimming for a while... i want to cycle now! anyone interested? =)

http://www.amazon.de/exec/obidos/tg/feature/-/144065/ref%3Ded%5Fcp%5Fle%5F1%5F11/302-3741503-4511251

oh and this is a link to an interview with the author of the previous book i was reading (English Passengers - Matthew Kneal). it's a fantastic and engaging read. and for one who's actually been to tasmania and visited Port Arthur and its dark rooms, the references to those places in the bk really rang true...

its tragic-comic dealing with the relationship between the British and the aborigines also gives cause to stop, ponder and reflect... deeply on the issue of colonialisation.

here's a little something on john steinbeck. http://www.nobel.se/literature/laureates/1962/steinbeck-bio.html

and his novel The Grapes of Wrath eg. like places where it was banned,
http://ghs.bcsd.k12.il.us/projects/Students/banned/grapes.HTM

and a short but well-written article on the why behind the story http://www.beyondbooks.com/lam12/3c.asp
searching the site will also turn up other gd articles on eg. Steinbeck and Social Conscience and other great American writers.

i've just been looking for the essay natalie portman wrote before StarWars Eps I came out... something they asked her to write abt her experience or feelings acting in such a 'legacy' of the movie world (or something like that), however, to my disappointment, i cant find it... oh well. the reason i mention this is because a few friends and i were talking abt StarWars today and sad to say, my recollection of n.portman's acting was unfortunately : disappointment.. =( perhaps it was the script? (hard as it is to say, i being a huge StarWars fan, but it sucked... "purple prose" as a reviewer in the newspaper said.. urgh) ... which then recalled the essay she wrote, to me... again, i was disappointed when i read it. it was technically good, but i felt it lacked (what to me constitutes any gd piece of writing) - soul. it was good in the sense like her grades are gd (she's a straight A student and her SAT scores are obscenely high!).... but it seemed a little too 'perfect', too well put-together, too mechanical...

then again... this is just my personal opinion! =) dissent all u n.portman fans out there... =))

introductions are never any fun to read...i try to read them, esp for my lit books but most of the time i manage to get as far as page 4 =)... but if ever there's an introduction to read, it's got to be the one by Brad Leithauser for John Steinbeck's The Grapes of Wrath Everyman's Library edition - succinct, it was bearable =) but what delighted the most was it was laudatory while being critical, praise and criticism measured evenly. though written in an even tone of voice, it left no doubt for the admiration of the author. it was insightful and an absolutely engaging read.