oh.. and in case pple who don know me real well are wondering if ive really got the dumps bad, one word/phrase/sentence of assurance: if i can ramble, if i talk, if i go on and on and on (even if its in a scarily depressive tone) = im ok (or at least on the mend)... ie. if i dont talk, or talk little that's bad.... (as im sure someone can attest to real well =)) haha... first laugh here in a while eh? precious... i ought to savour this moment...